Dear husband and children, I am writing to apologize for being me. I really messed up today. I abandoned you. I slept. Til 4:30 and only got up because we needed to go go fill a prescription at Target. Thing is, after dad came in to tell me it was late, around 2:30, I fell back to sleep. I had nightmares after that. All my anxiety came back and I was so depressed that I couldn't get out of bed in my dream. I was scared. Just yesterday's in traveled to China for work and now I was supposed to go back. I couldn't even lift my body. I was so ashamed and terrified.my mom was there, and I was in my childhood home,but I couldn't function. My parents were mystified and helpless. I flewovr the imaginary pond behind the house and saw where it joined with the newly finished imaginary catchment retaining pond that I hated. Mi landed where one flowed into the other. The big beeches I loved were still there on the hill but there was water where I used to lie. The basin at the overflow was full of tree branches and dead animals that had bee washed away in the flood. I poked a dead otter with a stick. It bobbed u dear the water and resurfaced. Back in my room, I rolled over and was furious at the kids for something they did but my voice caught in,y throat and could hardly be heard. That was why I couldn't call for help.